It just hits you like a train, the anxiety. Why? Why all of a sudden? It’s like something switches in your brain and BAM, anxiety from hell. Sometimes I know why I’m anxious but when it comes head on like this, I’m not sure why I’m anxious. I rack my brain but then I start to think of horrible things that do make me anxious and BAM now I’m doubly anxious, ugh it’s so irritating to be like this. I absolutely hate it. Sometimes not knowing why just makes it ten times worse, I feel like I’m dying on the inside, I don’t talk, I’ll just stare at my computer with my thoughts going a million miles a second, I have a shit ton of work but anxiety doesn’t give a shit, when anxiety shows up, it’s over. I can barely function when I get like this, my body just falls apart, I get depressed and just want to dry. Ugh, for fucks sake I hope this passes soon.
That is all I can hope for, that it passes soon and say to myself, see you soon anxiety.